Dear Lord,
Allow those who read this passage to gain new ways to achieve their own personal growth; obtaining their own formula to be in alignment with who you are to them in these present moments right now. Keep every reader in your loving grace as they go on this journey of self rediscovery and find the light that is within them as I have as well. Protect their minds Lord, for they are seeking guidance in you name more than anything right now with whatever it is that is keeping them weighted down.
~In Jesus Name, Amen
To really start this blog off there is a lot to unpack within such an expanded platform. But for starters I will begin with the years 2020-2023 as these are very important time frames to where I am in these present moments. Moments of our lives that probably seemed like a whole illusion turned out to be a whole social experiment for the whole world. A lot of that time spent in 2020 were of me enduring a lot of trauma from being sexually assaulted at just 19 years of age (due to a manipulative antic I had got myself into) to me being reliant on substances to feel the numbness of such experiences. No one really knew these things could happen or happened to me at all and at times I didn't even believe it myself because it couldn't have been true, but it was.
As 2020 emerged I really didn't know what life was supposed to look like considering I just graduated high school in 2019. The times after high school just seemed like a blur for the sole fact of it being the beginning stages for my adulthood and overall women-hood. I'm sure a lot of you have felt like these times of our lives were like a scam (especially those who have had to graduate/ go to school during an entire pandemic) where it was never ending cycles. Most times those cycles were recurring just due to the lack of knowledge to self rediscovery. I for one, didn't conform to my healing journey full on until I had to sit with myself for those long extended time frames. Not a day goes by where I don't think of how much time was wasted as well.
Me getting high and drunk majority of that time didn't really get me too far; and with all humbleness a lot of my mental health has held me back tremendously because I didn't believe nor love myself enough to seek validation from within, but was more focused on how others viewed me/felt about me. Also with the B.L.M. rallies and riots it took me to places I never thought I had to go through mentally at such a young age (and I can't stress this enough that all of this happened right after high school too smh). I always had the notion that I had to look outside of myself for the answers as well; but when I discovered what your "gut feeling" really conforms into being (that thing in particular is your intuition) changed my life forever. In religious terms, you are gaining more knowledge & direction from God himself; once you start to come closer to your intuition, the closer you get to developing a relationship with your own life. You start to really love YOU and brush off any oppressors who think otherwise. That's really where you find your power and this is where we gotta get back to in 2025.
All this to say, 2020 was the staple to the foundation of where most people are at today. It's either you woke up to the power you have within or you simply are still trying to figure out the missing pieces. But don't take it personal when I say that because it's literally apart of the human experience. As much as we don't want to go through certain aspects of life/withholding triggers and trauma, God only will bring them to you for you to heal them but more so as a reminder to not forget about your healing process. There is so much to see and so much to do with this life we live so lets try our best to defeat the enemy one step at a time! If you didn't get this today or don't feel it in yourself at the moment, just know I see you, honor you and cherish your world just as much as God does for you<3
~Indigo Vibration <3 1111
P.S. ; I'd like to take this time to thank each and everyone who has read my blog so far or have just simply skimmed through it! All the love is much felt from everywhere everyone is at in these present moments. Just a heads up to those who want to keep up with these blogs when posted; I've been playing around with the site a bit and discovered there is an app for this site as well! The app is called "Blogger" with the same logo. I believe if you just log in with your gmail account and follow me that it should give you proper updates. Either way if you are on social media, most of the updates are going to be posted via Instagram or Facebook. I will also in the near future be making separate accounts to accommodate from my blog to my personal accounts just to keep things more organized, but we shall see how things go :) I hope everyone enjoys the rest of their Friday! Stay safe and keep God #1, I
love you all <3
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